There are some things I want someone to know but not able to speak to him right now. Anyway some years ago we had a misunderstanding which I felt badly about. A year later I ran into him and went out of my way to be friendly etc. I emailed him to say I was sorry that he got a message that was intended for anouther. Taken out of context, the message was not very nice though apt for intended reciever. I know he tok it personal because he was not very friendly when I saw him between the incident and the encounter whereas before all this we were good friends. Perhapps he could even take some responsibility because he did not ID himself and did not seem to take that into consideration but instead chose to beleive I was not nice/stable or whatever. Allin the past you say? Yes but it seems to hang like a grey cloud over what I have done or said since when in fact he didn't seem very happy when I saw him and I cared enough to try to correct this because I know he cared back and maybe it hurt him and that mattered. Now he seems to struggle with trusting me. In the kind of world we live in people you can trust are dam difficult to find and I could tell him stories about folks that have done to me what he seem to think I am trying to do to him-folks to whom I am closely related. I would like to go back to the time when just being in the same room with him was enough to make me happy, I think he felt the same. Where is there a dear Abby to tell me what to do?
I am conciously self created for most of my life, I am the best person I know how to be. I bought a bag of bones animal and promosed from my heart that he would never go hungry again- that he would never know the creulity of man again and every day for 15 years untill he died, I kept that promose- gladly. I am not cheap or easy, I dont uae others to get things- I am very self relient and want respect before love or at least whith it. I am a rock. Why do you find yourself unable to decide I am certain to be after you for what you have? I NEED to have what I need and want for once in my life because I dont have forever.
I want the man you hide deeply inside because when he was over my house I liked him a LOT -not in fashon but TRUE and if you can't handle the truth what good are you. Let me say that I will be ok if I don't "get" you, that
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